Just A Girl

She is just a girl. She is a friend to all.

She likes to be funny. She is mature enough to be funny. She keeps everyone in jolly mood. She listens to everyone. She can make everyone listen to her. She is beautiful from the outside and gorgeous from the inside. Her insatiable desire for life had no end. She is my best friend.

She is just a girl. She is strong.

She has suffered. She has pulled herself up. She has been a great person. She has learnt so many things. She can be rude. She can be cruel. She is strong. She is self-sufficient. She is impatient. She is restless. She is a distraction. She is an eye soothing attraction. Watch her continuously; she is bliss at every time fraction.

She is just a girl. She is bland.

She is adaptive. She is stable. She can adjust. She can change, but she wont. She can make people happy. She can make people sad. She is difficult to understand. People can go mad. She understands things. She doesn’t want to make things complex. She ignores many things. She runs from emotions. She tends to forget. She gets what she wants; she has her way. Not seeing her can just ruin the day. She is open for criticism. She is open for complaints. She wants to know everything and doesn’t want to know anything at the same point. She listens, she can ignore, she moves on like nothing happened before.

She is just a girl. She is perfect.

She is loveable.  She says she can’t be loved. She says she can drift apart easily. She says she is unaffected by people and the efforts. She isn’t. She says she gets ok easily. She doesn’t.  She is curious but she can’t burden herself. She doesn’t want to know anything. She was a giver. She was a reacher. She had become a settler. Giving is no more her forte. She considers everything will end. But someone tell her things are not meant to end.  She loves but cant express. Someone tell her expressing gives confidence and makes margin for more. She doesn’t want to express. She is what she desires to be. A combination of beauty and a puzzled mind.

She is THE girl. I love her.

The right Girl

You are the right girl.

You are rare. You are a bird.

You have seen bad climates, tolerated winds, seen high temperatures, been in cage for so long with broken wings. You have made efforts to migrate to far away places to see happiness. You have severely hut yourself that in spite of the bright sunlight, blooming flowers being permanent, you are not attaching yourself to them. You are broken. Your wings have healed yet there is pain in them. You have to get up. You will get up. You will fly so high. You will know what u are worthy of. You were endangered because of an unhealthy environment. Now you are at home. Do what u feel like to boost yourself up.

You are the right girl.

Situations have been wrong. People have been wrong.

Mistakes made by people have caused trouble. But mistakes are lessons learnt to help us in future.

You are the right girl.

You are lovable. You are loved. You are delicate. You are taken care of. You are strong. Don’t be excessively strong. Ignorance is bliss. But noticing small things is sometimes charming.  Life is a collection of memories; the idea is to have as many good ones as you can. But why do u always focus on the good ones. Also note the bad ones because they will be your strength for future.

You are the wrong girl.

You are adaptable..

You adjust quickly. You know how to make yourself happy. You run away from emotions but you should know that if you are running away from something, you are heading towards something else. Might be good, might be bad. But things just can’t be left like that, they need to be handled before they get out of hand. Don’t let your life have tangles earphones. The more you have, the more they start to become useless.

You are the wrong girl.

You are multiple.

Somethings are just not supposed to be said. They are supposed to be done. You let go easily. If you love a person, let them know. If they are important, let them know. If they are fighting with you, sympathize with them because they are sad. You take some things for granted. Don’t. You are getting so much love, passion, feelings from so many sides. Value them. Quality is more important than quantity . You cant keep everyone happy no matter how much you try. Quality is actually better than quantity.

You are the right girl.

I love you. I can tell the world that I love you.

I will tell not discuss with anyone the bond we share. It should just reflect. I will not talk about our relationship, it just can’t be explained. I will not ask you to spare time. I will treat you like a princess till the end of time. I will not cry in front of you because you don’t like it. I will not see anyone making you sad. I will not tolerate you being in any sort of problem. I am dependable. I want you to know that I am there; will always be, No matter what.

College Life ROCKS. !?? Seriously ?. Think. Think again.

Its been quite a long time, but i am back on writing shit.
Sorry. I have been writing but i didnt post anything. So i am back posting shit.
I have my exams going on. They have been going on for a month now. And they will be going on for a month  more. So i cannot cull anything but force myself to study or maybe pretend that i am studying.

The lyrics of the song "Feel this moment" by my favorite Pitbull echoing in my mind.
One day when the light is glowing
I’ll be in my castle golden
But until the gates are open
I just wanna feel this moment (ohhh)
I just wanna feel this moment (ohhh)
I just wanna feel this moment.

Well i love this song. But GHANTA FEEL THIS MOMENT.


Its such a snafu going on. All of us are frustrated with the college. The monotonous boring schedule has made our brains hate our college so much that we want a break. Well no one wants to attend college these days. Everyone wants off. Maybe thats because of the scorching heat that takes all our juice from our body or maybe that we dont wanna study or maybe we are tired of seeing the same people everyday ! Is it really ?. Possible but lame. !!

Well who knows. But the irony in the situation is so much idiotic. We all are yearning for vacations and freedom from these dungeon classrooms and hostels, BUT deep down we all know that the vacations will be the worst part. What will we all do for 2 months ? How will we spend these days ? Are we gonna sit idle and screw ourselves or are we going to do something ? If something  then what thing ??
Again, no one knows. But all i know is that people are restless. Me included.

For a start, lets not think about the vacations or the exams. Think whats missing. Think of the things that you want to do that may give you head start from others in your college. Try innovating projects and courses that you have a smallest idea could benefit you some or the other way. Stop criticizing the college, stop crying for boring days. Make your life interesting your own way. Make a bucket list consisting of all the wildest, weirdest , craziest, but productive, intellectual courses, things, projects, jobs that you can do in coming time.
At the end of the day, you dont want to regret wasting an awesome number of days in a fruitful way.
Dont keep dreaming about whangdoodles or wining about the lamest things around you.

Discover the things you can do.
Explore your potential.
Express it in any way that you can.
Hence i end up with the words of the same song that i started with.
Feel the moment. Feel the moment. Just feel it.

The D' Factor (part 2). !!

###Coming soon.

Appologies (2)

Sorry for the delays.
I was busy with some serious stuff so was not able to update the blog.
But i missed writing. So here i am.
inconvenience regretted. 

Calamity !

A high tide floods the sea shores and demolish the creatures staying inside the shores. It wipes out all the happiness and life process occurring at that place.

February, for me was this high tide. And it was a colossal one.

My Grandpa was not well. He slipped and fell down and got hurt in his head. Internal brain bleeding leading to minor brain stroke and lack of confidence in his gate made him he lose his hope in life. A risk of partial paralysis because of displacement of vertebrae made all the family members anxious. He was also suffering from dementia that resulted in him not recognizing me and anyone in the house. He started mixing present with past and ruined his sleeps.
He was admitted to fortis hospital on 1^st Feb. I had my End Semester Exams going on. I used to give the exam and rush back to home. I used to stay with dadaji in the hospital and sleep beside him praying for him to recover. During day I used to study and during night, I used to attend doctors in the room . I used to lie down on the bed and keep staring at my fragile motionless grandpa. No sooner did he move a bit than I rushed and call the nurse.
This schedule carried on for a week with a sign of no recovery.
My exams got over on 9^th Feb and I was ready for some holidays.
Every night I slept at the hospital. But the night of 14^th Feb was not a similar one.
Dadaji murmured my name. I went close to him and he looked into my eyes. I asked him if he was ok and he smiled and replied affirmative. I came back to my bed and sat down and saw him take a long breadth. That was his last breadth.
I became hyper and rushed and called the nurses. Assistant doctors came and asked me to move out. The nurse removed the kada in dadaji’s hand and handed it to me as they required an empty arm. A team of 10 people entered the room and 2 people started thumping his chest. I peeked through the door and saw the rush inside the room. I was heartbroken. At 3 am in the morning, I called my dad and burst out in tears.
The world came to an end for me for that instant. I lost the track of time and place and everything around me.
The following days were full of the rituals and ceremonies which I hate the most and following nights were sleepless and irritating.
I miss him badly. I cant imagine how I will stay in the same room considering that the person who used to sleep with me will never come back.
I love him. And I will always remember him.
 

Express, Explore and Enjoy

“Let yourself be open and life will be easier. A spoon of salt in a glass of water makes the water undrinkable. A spoon of salt in a lake is almost unnoticed.” - Prince Gautama Siddharta

So many things happened in past few weeks. I try recalling everything i did and everything happened and a smile automatically appears on my face. I enjoyed every moment of being me. I might have done some stupid things as well but I have no regrets. So this one is about enjoying every moment to its fullest.

Express.

We think allot. We think about futile things and burden ourselves with grudges against other people. We get irritated or offended by some things said by other people and we keep it to ourselves in order not to 'get into a fight'. We dont let things out of our mind and carry the load everywhere every time with us. This, as a matter of fact, degrades our ability to enjoy the present because, our mind is pre-occupied with other thoughts, and those thoughts, which are about a person who doesn't even know that he or she might have offended you. So WHY EVEN CARRY THOSE THOUGHTS when they are just useless !!
Although you try avoiding a fight or an argument but it only degrades you and no one else.
And thus, Expressing things and solving grudges timely is very important.
You keep some grudge against one person and you dont express it. Then some other person bothers you and you dont express that either. A Third person bothers you and you keep that grudge inside your brain.
Eventually it accumulates and keeps on entering the 'hide it' part of your brain. Then, one day, you get so frustrated that you blast out everything on some person who doesn't even deserve to be your punching bag.
But that punching bag is your real friend.
So, we can compare the 'hide it' part our brain as a volcano. Activities keep on occurring, heat keeps accumulating and eventually it blasts resulting in undesirable results. Hence, it is necessary to keep solving your grudges from time to time. Talk to people about it. Express yourself to avoid blasting over others.

Explore.We are satisfied with our lives just as the way we get it. We just move with the crowd. We dont experience new things, make new friends, find our pros , explore life. We are satisfied with our limited scope in life. We dont want to leave our Comfort Zone.In order to explore ourselves, we need to step out og the comfort zone. Leave the everyday life aside and do something new. Try extraordinary things. Make new friends. Find a way to please yourself. Do wild things. Just forget about the everyday things and find other possibilities of life.

Don't enter your circle of life untill you have quenched the thirst of being you. Explore Life. Its worth living.

Enjoy
Accomplishing the above two tasks, you will find yourself much more happier. Just dont be scared to do things. Words like 'regret' and 'guilt' are worth ignoring. If you are scared to take an action and you feel that it would be a mistake, then the best way to know if its a mistake or not is to DO IT. If it results in something undesirable then it was a mistake and you learn a lesson and never repeat it. If it results in something you wanted to happen, even then you learn a lesson !!

Express Yourselves
Explore Yourselves
Enjoy Yourselves

P.S. I thank Mahak Maini for her idea of comparing things for explanations and adding sketches and Palac Chhabra, Surbhi Saini and Abhijit Singh for some other things.